Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts

Monday, August 15, 2011

Prayers for the day

As the saying goes, "When it rains, it pours." Well actually, I pray today that it would rain. Or pour. But that's not what this entry is about.

Please forgive me and bare with me because I have a heavy heart today and have found myself constantly praying for my cousin Tyler and Aunt Pat.

Tyler, 26 years old, has been put into a medically induced coma so that his body will relax and try to heal. He was born with only one immune system and as an infant, contracted Hepatitis C through a contaminated needle. In 2001, we got the news we were waiting for with his first liver transplant, but time and the disease has done it's damage on this life giving present. He now finds himself in need of not just a liver transplant but also kidneys. I pray for his continued strength to fight through this terrible disease. I pray for his wife Kristen, that she finds strength and leans on family when she needs them most. I pray for Jaydin, that she has a relationship with her father for many, many years to come.



I pray for the quick healing of Aunt Pat. After several days of severe stomach pains, doctors told her that she has ovarian cancer. Today, she underwent a full hysterectomy and exploratory surgery to make sure the cancer did not spread to other organs. I pray that she recovers fully and that the cancer has not done more damage.

Family means the world to me and I pray Heavenly Father that you continue to watch over my loved ones. Keep them safe, guide them, protect them, and hold them close in this time of heartache.

"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do no keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him."
Matthew 6:5-8

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

So What Wednesday...

So what if I fed Slim, the stray cat outside that I've not seen for a long time. I've missed the little guy!

So what if I'm now driving a Toyota Carolla as a rental car. My Lexi will be good as new by the weekend.

So what if I burned the bacon this morning and it had to be thrown in the trash. That's what I get, I'm not supposed to be eating it anyway. (damn karma!)

So what I'm excited the sun hasn't come out today. Not that it's going to rain anyway, but just happy that my grass isn't being scorched for another day in the Texas heat/sunshine.

So what I've only lost 3 lbs in 2 weeks. It brought a smile to my face to see that the number didn't go up!

So what if I keep updating marketwatch.com to see what the market is doing today. I want to put more money in and big down days are the days to do it.

So what if I have to go to the grocery store for the 2nd time this week. I'm not used to this {being home} thing, and didn't buy enough groceries to last 2 weeks.


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Real Life Emotions

nervous- unnaturally or acutely uneasy or apprehensive; to become nervous under stress.


stress- a specific response by the body to a stimulus, as fear or pain, that disturbs or interferes with the normal physiological equilibrium of an organism.


fear- a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined, the feeling or condition of being afraid


pain- physical suffering or distress, as due to injury, illness, etc.


What do all of these words have in common other than they are all Real Life Emotions?

It's everything that I'm experiencing inside.


Today, I blocked out April 11th in my date book, and the 3 weeks that follow April 11th. April 11th will be surgery day, and the 3 weeks that follow will be the recovery time.


I will be having major surgery on my tailbone. It's something that I knew was going to have to be done, but I avoided it. Ignored it. Wished it away. Today, none of that was happening.


I find myself in an all too unfamiliar situation. I'm not good with surgery; I can comfort others going through it, but I'M NOT GOOD.


I'm nervous, scared, and stressed.